Childhood Abuse Survivor

I have hit some magical age where my childhood abuse has caught up with me.... but I will not let it win, and will fight and know that God will see me through just as He always has.... my goal in this blog is to share with others and to vent as well about the experiences of childhood abuse, not just the physical abuse, but the emotional as well. The old saying about sticks and stones break bones but words can never hurt.... they couldn't be farther from the truth!!

I have two wonderful daughters and am blessed that God chose me to "break the cycle" and above all, they know that I love them with all my heart and they are great girls!!! Right now though, I just need to make some peace with my past.... (and if you met my mother, you'd understand... hahaha). I know that know matter where I am at in my journey though, that God is ALWAYS with me!!


Friday, December 16, 2011

Happy Birthday Mom

So today is December 16th, my mother's birthday. We do not have a relationship, I can't pick up a phone and just say Happy Birthday! (Her phone is broke now and I feel bad cuz there is a part of me that's like haha, but I know that's just vindictive and I don't really mean it.) For years I have dreaded this day, but this year, I'm gonna take my valium... lol!!! But seriously, I am 35 and she turns 58 today, hard to believe... I am learning to make peace with my past and going forward..... but today will always be bitter-sweet for me, Happy Birthday Mom, I really do love you! (I just can't have a relationship because she is SO unhealthy and it is catastrophic for me to be in one with her, if I could though, I would). And being here, I know I have made it forward and will continue to do so!
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